Category Archives: spiritual

Where I Am Now

Its just under one month shy of when my world completely changed. January 2014 was a time I will never forget.  I had gotten the flu, my great aunt was in the hospital dying, I was still misdiagnosed with multiple … Continue reading

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Psych Ward : Part 2

I’ve made a very difficult decision today.  I am going to post my “journal” from my time in the psych ward last year when my ammonia levels where exuberantly high.  No one had ever seen them before today when I … Continue reading

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Surviving the Setbacks

I have been too tired, too exhausted to post anything for such a long time.  Treatment had not been going well and after talking to my doctor, I had an emergency appointment with my doctor at the beginning of last … Continue reading

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What Is Wrong With Me?

What is wrong with me? That’s a question I get from just about everyone and one that I ask myself maybe too often.  I know my diseases.  I know them well.  After all, we’ve spent half of my life together … Continue reading

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Unconventional Road to Health

I am intense.  I always have been.  I can be laid back but always in an intense kind of way.  After all I am a Virgo.  There are certain traits about myself that I just love and this happens to … Continue reading

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Dreams Come True – Halestorm

I have 3 major dreams in life right now…to meet be in remission, to be a wife/mother and to meet the band Halestorm. (Of course I still wish and pray for a cure, but since Lyme is not even accepted … Continue reading

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Birthdays, Dosing, Healing & Psychic Abilities

In a couple of weeks, I’ll be a year older…I’ll start my personal new year.  Just as many people do during the coming of the “official” new year, every year (usually starts about a month before my actual birthday) I … Continue reading

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