Category Archives: spiritual

Death by Tick?

I am sick. Very sick. Again. I keep hiding things that I shouldn’t be.  I’m not accurately communicating even when I try my hardest.  Today has been filled with lots of tears.  My plate and cup are overflowing with guilt … Continue reading

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Deprived, Depraved, Depressed, Disheartened

I haven’t been sleeping well again. And I haven’t been taking care of myself.  I’m falling into old patterns and trying to stop them.  I’m putting the needs/wants of others before my own health. I’m trying to establish and ENFORCE … Continue reading

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Babesia – Its Back

Its late for me to be writing.  I am swimming in the thoughts that have been brewing all day.  Even though my brain is ALWAYS worse at night than first thing in the morning, I’m getting it out (my iPad … Continue reading

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Sick Individual

I should be dead.  I SHOULD BE DEAD! But I’m still hear and still kicking and screaming and fighting with every single thing I have! I know in previous blogs I’ve expressed my affinity for the band Halestorm and I’ve … Continue reading

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Rollercoaster of Emotions

I have been avoiding blogging for as long as possible.  I considered never blogging again. But my journey is not over.  I still have so far to go and so much to say to help others.  Prolonging sharing will only … Continue reading

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Pretending

I purposely haven’t blogged in a while.  In fact, I have avoided most contact except with my close family and friends (both mostly by phone) for the last month.  I haven’t checked my email.  I have barely been seen on … Continue reading

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Reflection and Thanks

A year ago today I was fighting the remainder of the flu.  I was working (Southern Patrol, my favorite.) I was still searching for the correct diagnosis. I was set in my routine. I was going about life the best … Continue reading

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What No One Tells You About

There are so many things I have learned over the course of the last year.  What I realize now is that there are a lot of things that no one tells you about treatment.  So here is my version of … Continue reading

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Comfortable

D.C. days are always long, stressful and utterly exhausting.  It’s not that I mind the appointment, well the test dosing is usually not fun, but I’m done test dosing new IV meds, but the combination of the appointment and the … Continue reading

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The Way

I can finally see small improvements in my treatment. Most are small by other standards, but just having more “good” days is amazing. Dosing is becoming easier (though I don’t think it could have gotten much worse after last month.) … Continue reading

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