Category Archives: Hell

Woman Down

Posted on October 19, 2017 by lymestorm

It’s a beautiful fall day outside.  I can hear the children laughing and playing.  I’m confined to bed today.  I am in excruciating physical pain and emotionally I am a disaster.  My life has spun completely out of control and I’m … Continue reading →

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Babesia Blues

Posted on February 8, 2017 by lymestorm

I’ve been down in a dark hole for weeks now.  I just finished four months of Babesia treatment.  Four long, rough months.  While I haven’t been physically herxing the mental herxing has been nearly unbearable.  I’ve been all over the … Continue reading →

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Psych Ward : Part 2

Posted on September 26, 2016 by lymestorm

I’ve made a very difficult decision today.  I am going to post my “journal” from my time in the psych ward last year when my ammonia levels where exuberantly high.  No one had ever seen them before today when I … Continue reading →

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Shakes and Emotions

Posted on September 26, 2016 by lymestorm

I finished dosing Friday and it took me longer to recover than usual. I missed most of a beautiful weekend because my body would not cooperate.  My fatigue was dictating my life again.  I wanted to stay awake and take … Continue reading →

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Phoenix Rising

Posted on May 4, 2016 by lymestorm

The last several months I haven’t been myself.  Too tired, too depressed, too suicidal to do anything. My days were taken minute by minute in a battle to survive the damage that my brain and body have endured. I found … Continue reading →

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Surviving the Setbacks

Posted on March 5, 2016 by lymestorm

I have been too tired, too exhausted to post anything for such a long time.  Treatment had not been going well and after talking to my doctor, I had an emergency appointment with my doctor at the beginning of last … Continue reading →

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Trapped Inside My Own Head

Posted on January 8, 2016 by lymestorm

For the last couple of months I have been confined to a terrible, horrible place…my own mind.  I haven’t written. I haven’t danced. I’ve hardly left the house.  I haven’t been participating in life around me.  I haven’t done much … Continue reading →

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Support

Posted on December 4, 2015 by lymestorm

Lyme disease (not to mention its coinfections) cannot be fought alone.  The old saying that “It takes a village to raise a child” is 100% applicable to tickborne illnesses.  Because in a way the road to health and remission requires … Continue reading →

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Stuck In Between

Posted on August 20, 2015 by lymestorm

I’m stuck. Some days its more like being trapped.  The last few months have been pretty much a living nightmare.  I’ve had so many set backs with treatment.  My body is worn out and my brain is a mess most … Continue reading →

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Death by Tick?

Posted on July 24, 2015 by lymestorm

I am sick. Very sick. Again. I keep hiding things that I shouldn’t be.  I’m not accurately communicating even when I try my hardest.  Today has been filled with lots of tears.  My plate and cup are overflowing with guilt … Continue reading →

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