Category Archives: suicidal thoughts

Babesia – Its Back

Posted on May 21, 2015 by lymestorm

Its late for me to be writing.  I am swimming in the thoughts that have been brewing all day.  Even though my brain is ALWAYS worse at night than first thing in the morning, I’m getting it out (my iPad … Continue reading →

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Sick Individual

Posted on April 21, 2015 by lymestorm

I should be dead.  I SHOULD BE DEAD! But I’m still hear and still kicking and screaming and fighting with every single thing I have! I know in previous blogs I’ve expressed my affinity for the band Halestorm and I’ve … Continue reading →

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Reflection and Thanks

Posted on January 2, 2015 by lymestorm

A year ago today I was fighting the remainder of the flu.  I was working (Southern Patrol, my favorite.) I was still searching for the correct diagnosis. I was set in my routine. I was going about life the best … Continue reading →

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System Failures and Money Matters

Posted on November 7, 2014 by lymestorm

I am battling several diseases all of which are capable of taking my life.  At my time of diagnosis (April 2014) I was told that I would have died within 12 months time had I not received medical intervention.  That … Continue reading →

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24 Hours in Hell

Posted on October 19, 2014 by lymestorm

What happened in the last 24 hours I hope to never in my life experience again. My mom found me on the cold tile floor of my bathroom curled up as tightly as I could be crying in pain and … Continue reading →

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Life Cycle

Posted on August 11, 2014 by lymestorm

I’ve come to a rather dark place in my mind. I’m not sure how much of it is treatment or this disease or just my brain. It amazes me how many years I spent getting to know myself and finding … Continue reading →

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