Category Archives: lyme’s disease

Shakes and Emotions

I finished dosing Friday and it took me longer to recover than usual. I missed most of a beautiful weekend because my body would not cooperate.  My fatigue was dictating my life again.  I wanted to stay awake and take … Continue reading

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Love and Relapse

It’s about 3:30 in the morning and I can’t sleep.  I’m sick.  Sicker than I’ve been in a very long time.  Life and its recent stresses have caught up to me.  I need to release, so here I am. I … Continue reading

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Phoenix Rising

The last several months I haven’t been myself.  Too tired, too depressed, too suicidal to do anything. My days were taken minute by minute in a battle to survive the damage that my brain and body have endured. I found … Continue reading

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Deprived, Depraved, Depressed, Disheartened

I haven’t been sleeping well again. And I haven’t been taking care of myself.  I’m falling into old patterns and trying to stop them.  I’m putting the needs/wants of others before my own health. I’m trying to establish and ENFORCE … Continue reading

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Babesia – Its Back

Its late for me to be writing.  I am swimming in the thoughts that have been brewing all day.  Even though my brain is ALWAYS worse at night than first thing in the morning, I’m getting it out (my iPad … Continue reading

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Reflection and Thanks

A year ago today I was fighting the remainder of the flu.  I was working (Southern Patrol, my favorite.) I was still searching for the correct diagnosis. I was set in my routine. I was going about life the best … Continue reading

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Treatment Date & Details & Ramblings

Well I got the official word yesterday that on June 23rd I get my Power Line (central line) put in and start my antibiotic treatment. Its going to be a long day. I have to be in DC (a 1.5-2 … Continue reading

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Cure Unknown:Inside the Lyme Epidemic

“Cure Unknown – Inside the Lyme Epidemic by Pamela Weintraubn is a definite read for anyone learning about Lyme. Make sure you have someone to talk to after…you’ll be ready to talk their ear off about all you “new” facts … Continue reading

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