Category Archives: bartonella

Death by Tick?

Posted on July 24, 2015 by lymestorm

I am sick. Very sick. Again. I keep hiding things that I shouldn’t be.  I’m not accurately communicating even when I try my hardest.  Today has been filled with lots of tears.  My plate and cup are overflowing with guilt … Continue reading →

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Psych Ward

Posted on July 12, 2015 by lymestorm

This is hard one for me and one I struggled with as to whether to discuss, but I promised myself I would be open and honest about my journey through my illness and treatment.  I needed some time to process … Continue reading →

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Deprived, Depraved, Depressed, Disheartened

Posted on June 13, 2015 by lymestorm

I haven’t been sleeping well again. And I haven’t been taking care of myself.  I’m falling into old patterns and trying to stop them.  I’m putting the needs/wants of others before my own health. I’m trying to establish and ENFORCE … Continue reading →

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Babesia – Its Back

Posted on May 21, 2015 by lymestorm

Its late for me to be writing.  I am swimming in the thoughts that have been brewing all day.  Even though my brain is ALWAYS worse at night than first thing in the morning, I’m getting it out (my iPad … Continue reading →

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Sick Individual

Posted on April 21, 2015 by lymestorm

I should be dead.  I SHOULD BE DEAD! But I’m still hear and still kicking and screaming and fighting with every single thing I have! I know in previous blogs I’ve expressed my affinity for the band Halestorm and I’ve … Continue reading →

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Rollercoaster of Emotions

Posted on March 30, 2015 by lymestorm

I have been avoiding blogging for as long as possible.  I considered never blogging again. But my journey is not over.  I still have so far to go and so much to say to help others.  Prolonging sharing will only … Continue reading →

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Pretending

Posted on February 9, 2015 by lymestorm

I purposely haven’t blogged in a while.  In fact, I have avoided most contact except with my close family and friends (both mostly by phone) for the last month.  I haven’t checked my email.  I have barely been seen on … Continue reading →

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Reflection and Thanks

Posted on January 2, 2015 by lymestorm

A year ago today I was fighting the remainder of the flu.  I was working (Southern Patrol, my favorite.) I was still searching for the correct diagnosis. I was set in my routine. I was going about life the best … Continue reading →

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System Failures and Money Matters

Posted on November 7, 2014 by lymestorm

I am battling several diseases all of which are capable of taking my life.  At my time of diagnosis (April 2014) I was told that I would have died within 12 months time had I not received medical intervention.  That … Continue reading →

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Tears and Courage

Posted on October 6, 2014 by lymestorm

I’m so tired of people NOT thinking I’m sick because I “don’t look sick.” I wish that people could see exactly what is going on inside of me. I’m hate when some one finds out you have Lyme and they … Continue reading →

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